what now?

now that this year is quickly coming to an end, I'm starting to wonder what I'm going to do this summer. there's always the choice of working and babysitting but its my final summer to not have to really have much to work about and be a kid without many responsibilities.
so instead of trying to make this decision now and ending up hating myself for doing something that i don't want to do, ill just go with whatever happens for need to be done.
for some people this could be bad but i think that ill be able to balance everything that i want to have accomplished this summer.
last year i basically lived at the beach, literally. i woke up, call friends, met at the beach and we stayed there all day and left when it was time to sleep. i mean yeah we left and got food and stuff. but you get the point. i did that everyday and i loved it. it was relaxing and refreshing but this year i want to be more proactive and get myself ready to take on my senior year.
i completely plan on going to college. nothing can stop that dream of mine. but in order for that to happen i need to stay focused and finish my high school education strong.

Almost There...

As my junior year is coming to an end, I am now in my panic mode. This year I wanted to focus on college prep and making my mind up. I've thought about what I want to do but I am yet undecided. I know the type of work I want to do but I can’t make up my mind on how I'm going to get there and what level of the work I want to go into.

My main career choices are teaching, psychology, and medicine. I know its going to take a lot to get to any of these places but it will be totally worth it in the end.

Teaching will be determined by the end of next year. I have been accepted into the TEE program (Teacher Education Exploration) for my senior year. The program will allow me to go into schools and help teach, prepare lesions, and interact with students to help get a better understanding about what I would be doing if decided to become a teacher.

Psychology has been my choice for a long time. i love helping people and listening. All of my friends come to me for advice and different problems that they are going through and need help. 

If I choose to go into the field of medicine, I will have responsibility for other lives. I will be interacting with many varieties of people. The practice would enable me to better myself and help others better their lives as well.

What everyone wants to be happy and have a successful life. Even though it is a scary thought, I can’t stop myself from constantly planning and looking forward to my future.

Spring Fever

It's very common for teens to have spring fever. However, we all need to stay focused and get work done.

When this time of the year arrives, we all need a little motivation to stay focused and finish strong.
Everyone just expects to be done with everything.

Homework isn't a priority, getting ready for summer,
for seniors... getting ready for college, being outside, socializing with friends, etc. that's basically whats on most peoples mind...

Even though its so nice out, we must all know how to accomplish what needs to be done first. To do so, we must have our priorities straight. We all have our own values and morals and we need to keep those in perspective. You must see all the positives that come out of keeping your head on and staying in control.


I know many Seniors are looking forward to the final summer and preparing for college and I know I'll have to remind myself next year as well.

After all of the snow and gross weather, we all look forward to the first day that we can go outside without a heavy coat and other outerwear. When the subject of spring comes up, it's either a love or hate subject. I personally love spring because it reassures me that summer is right around the corner.

So to keep focused and end the school year on a good note, keep yourself focused and don't let little distractions hold you back from succeeding what you want to get done.

Gay Marriages

many people frown upon gay marriages. however, there is an equal amount of people that are all for it. 

i guess it all depends on the person..

if its not harming me then why should i really care that much? besides the fact that the human population may become extinct but that is highly unrealistic. we have made it this far in society to know that we have the technology to support anything. including gay marriages.

we all have our rights and they state that we are free

but does this include our right to marry however we want?

YES!

this topic has been being argued about for years.

yet it is just now coming to the surface.

i don't understand why some people make such a big deal out of it. i don't understand the whole "oh my god its so

gross" concept because, its not you! it really should matter what they do on their own time! we should all just leave people alone and mind our own business.

its time for everyone to calm down about this subject and just let people be who they want to be.

its kind of like smoking weed or doing any drug for that fact. yeah, its illegal but we still do it, we just don't let the government find out. so, fighting about the topic wont really change anything, it will just make people hide

gay marriage is a right that the government needs to abide by. not try and change it because they don't like it or for whatever reason. its their choice. it will happen one way or another.

Hockey Time!

One word to describe hockey fans: crazy

Ever since I was about 7 I’ve been around some pretty insane people.

Most people that watch hockey cannot control how loud or how much or even what they say.

Sometimes it’s rather amusing, but other times, it’s straight up annoying.

If the wrong person is getting over excited about a game, you basically want to die.

My mom and I were at my brothers’ game the other day and this lady with a high pitch scratchy voice would not shut up. It almost got to the point of me walking up to her and telling her off.

Yes it’s intense and yes I understand your child is out playing but that doesn’t mean you have to scream and give the rest of the audience a headache.

A couple years ago we were in New York for a tournament.

A ref made a bad call. This man jumped out of the stands and climbed up the glass screaming at him...

He got escorted out...

Funniest yet scariest moment ever.

Hockey fights are the best, by far.

Once you see a guy start to cock up and get all intimidating looking;

You know it’s goin down

Sometimes, they’re so brutal that refs cannot even break them up...

They throw their gloves down, slide back on the ice a little bit. Then it goes down

Legit the blood on the ice makes it the best.

That's why they're the best fights ever.

Now for hockey moms,

Occasionally insane, enough said.

No matter how crazy the family and fans are,

I will always love the sport and love watching and yelling

The joys of winning and the anger of losing, it never really

Seems to matter in the end when you’re back at home or a hotel room.

Yeah, people are mad for awhile but that doesn’t last for long,

Especially when other friends are around.

My brothers have been in a lot of different hockey clubs.

I can’t even name them all.

But we started off in Elyria because we lived here at the time

But if you think that people change severely between the different clubs

That’s so false!

Hockey is a sport that requires

dedication and determination

hense the reason for angry and crazy people.

You are here...

I'm gonna go ahead and do a little timeline of my high school years.

I started in Avon Lake in 6th grade. Thats where the drama started. I was new and all i wanted to do is to be able to fit in. Therefore, I did just that and started hanging out with "the wrong people".

By 7th grade i had completely changed from my tomboy self to this little preppy hollister prima donna. Lets just say that my parents didnt really enjoy the tragic change..

Now onto 8th grade... Well i was just a mess. My mind was in the wrong places and it led me to be just a complete "train wreck".

The downward spiral happened so fast, my parents didnt know how to handle it. so they did it the best way they knew how; by telling me straight up how it really was. The conversation basically consisted of them telling me that the kids in hanging with are bad news and they didnt like the new me. they wanted the old me back. thats all they had to say for me to get the picture of my drastic change. (that i didnt really want in the first place...)

picture from 8th grade

I would really like to post the whole truth about my freshman year on here but that could lead to some people getting very mad.. Not what i need right now. Soo... Lets just say that my frehman year was all about sneaking out of friends house's and hanging out at the park by her house with a HUGE group of people. We would sit out there for HOURRSSS. Go home around 3 AM and go to bed, wake up and do the same thing again with the same people. We did that all year long; even through blizzards and horrible heat.

And now is where it all starts to get better. Sophomore year. I figured that I'd give the new girl Vicky a chance. Turns out that we got along perfectly. She was a little goody goody and thats what i needed to help me get away from my "bad streak". So we were besties for that year; still are actually. Swim season started and i decided to do that and try and put my energy somewhere. Thats where i met Rachel McCann. Now we're one in the same. Literally. We are the best of friends and are insepratable to this day..

Junior year... one word: interesting. I dont really have just one "group" that i hang out with. I'm always talking to everyone i see. I tried to make all my problems go away and now i dont really have problems with anyone and no one has problems with me. (that im aware of). now that ive been through all of this, my parents trust me and all the decisions that i make on my way to success. no matter how much they dont agree they know that i know how to be responsible and not  make bad decisions just to be accepted. because basically i dont really care if you dont like me... so. its really whatever.. 

so thats a shortened version of my life and how i became the way i am now. 

what im trying to express in this post is that it doesnt matter how you were when you were younger, just that you make sure you are the person you want to be.

Facebook Anonymous

The new addiction of today.

Yes we all know what facebook is. Well at least I hope so...

Parents, siblings, grandparents, everyone knows about facebook.

Everyone in my family has one. It’s not uncommon.

People lie about their age so they can get on and connect with friends that have them

But little do they realize that this hot trend is addicting to a lot of people.

Including myself...

Go on the computer to do homework; go on facebook too. It’s hard not to. (I’m on now...)

You learn things about people and can easily "creep" which is also a very common thing to do

Talk about someone... look 'em up on facebook.

There are so many things to do on facebook that it’s hard to resist the temptation of going on.

Not only is it a social network but also gaming, quizzes, and an easy access to get info to spread.

Like the term "facebook offic." as in relationships or anything else for that matter...

You can post anything and it just spreads like wildfire.

My parents often are amazed about the fact that they have connected with so many people that they once knew. And now they hang out and go out with old friends all the time.

So I guess if you have the right discipline then you don’t have to worry about the whole addiction but just a warning that it has the potential to suck you into the “black hole of facebook”.

It's amazing and powerful addiction.